Recreating Myself
I did it!! I survived my first Bikrams Yoga class last night, completing the one thing I have never done before as part of my 2009 Intentions. I kept my word, there is a lot of power in that and I feel like I have had a major breakthrough! I set the intention to do one thing a month that I have never done before and for the month of January I had declared it to be going to a Bikrams Yoga class. I had resisted Bikrams for years. Had lots of judgements about it, it’s not healthy, it’s too trendy, blah blah blah. It’s amazing all the barriers and resistances I had to go through to complete this goal. I had tried to go a couple weeks ago but when I got there the studio had moved, I finally found the new studio a few blocks away and when I finally got there at 8:05, the time I had thought that class was supposed to be, I discovered that it was the one night they don’t have class at that time. I was so bummed. Do you ever go through those times where you feel like you are totally out of sync with the universe? That night was one of those nights, in fact the last couple weeks have been like that. I have been feeling like something is out in my life, actually like everything is out. Anyway, I will come back to that. I was talking about the barriers and distractions I had to go through to accomplish this one simple goal I had set. I had a challenging couple weeks so I had actually given up on it. But then it was January 31st and I mentioned to my friend that it was the last day for me to do my Bikrams challenge and she jumped right on it and said, okay let’s go, she looked it up on the internet found the times and places and we made a plan. I had just come back from a long walk on the beach and had made plans to go for Indian Buffet with another friend and was starving so we decided to go for the last class available that day. I had a few hours between the time we were going to eat before the class so I thought I would be fine. On the way to Indian buffet we encountered a few distractions and ended up eating about an hour later than expected. I still had a couple hours to digest, no problem! But you know how buffets go, I went for seconds and then a few more nibbles off my friends plate who arrived later than us and then there was that little bite of a galub jaman ball, that was just oh, so irresistable. I had 30 minutes, no problem. Okay, so now I am at that phase where I am committed and determined and now come the external resistances. My friend’s boyfriend has all these concerns for me about my digestion, my accomplis is running late, I have 20 mintues to get there and I have to drop my friend home. I am given the wrong directions, it’s 10 minutes before the class starts and I am getting my other friend to look up the proper coordinates on the internet and reporting back to me as I am driving there. I finally arrive at the studio. It’s seven minutes before the class starts, now comes the final test, I find out that it costs $21, I was about to use that as an excuse to say forget it, it’s a rip off! But luckily I had my dear friend, soul sister and accomplis in transformation with me to hold me to my commitment and cha ching, $21 later and a sargeant like command, “class is starting, get in there” there I was in my sport bikini towel on my mat in a steaming hot stinky room with about 20 other people on a Saturday night voluntarily there to get our butt’s kicked and sweat our asses off. After an hour and a half of sweating, moments of dizziness, a few Indian buffet belches, words of encouragement, a few giggles shared with my friend about the absurdity of it all, deep breathing, my towel drenched, I lie in the steaming room with a beet red face and a big fat smile on my face. I did it! Recreating ourselves isn’t always easy but it sure is gratifying! It’s been an epic week and I would love to share more but it will have to wait, it’s time to feed the beast once again. After all I worked up quite an appetite!
